p.i.c.t.u.r.e.s

Outing with my best friend.

2011-02-04T06:47:00.001-08:00

So I went out with my best friend, Chockie, during the 2nd day of CNY. I mean I contacted all my friends, none of them seems to be... NOT busy. So I guess I really owe this fella so much for sparing her time for me. :)

We arrived at Midvalley and met up with my best friend. Thus, we decided to go to Sushi King for lunch! Yum yum~ ^^

Nyahaha there is my best friend trying to analyze my Ipod. :)

Btw, speaking about Ipod. If any of you know how to jailbreak, please do teach me. TQ. :D

Moving on...

Hehehe. Silly. =.= We chatted a lot at Sushi King, suddenly I was wondering if the waiters or waitresses were sick of us. I didn't count how many times we refilled our cold green tea already! Nyahaha. Luckily none of them were sick. Speaking of waitresses, one of them seems to have the same name as me. Hmmm. Ironic much? :D

We headed to MPH to buy me one of those "practice IELTS" book. Seriously dude, those books are heck expensive. -.- Luckily I manage to find one under 30bucks. But take a look at what we both found!

Haha, if you know my best friend and her well known nickname, you would have laugh when you see this.

So after MPH, we dropped by Watson to look for Choc's ankle guard. We weren't contented, so we scouted around for some more shops that were selling ankle guards. Until we went into this shop, where they just have the amazing prices of ankle guards.

The 1st ankle guard we saw was rm137? If I'm not mistaken. I mean, who pays for an ankle guard over a hundred bucks? But anyway, luckily she found what she wanted and no she didn't bought that expensive ankle guard.

Thanks to this awesome salesperson who helped us out.

And HOORAY! She got what she wanted. :)

We looked around the mall to buy us some time before we watch "Shaolin" on the big screen. When the time came, we went up to the cinema and watch it. I gotta say, it's not a bad movie after all. Andy Lau and Nicholas Tse makes not a bad combination. Not forgetting Mr. Jackie Chan. :D

Anyway, for those of you who really want movie with fightings and blood shed and war. I'll recommend this after Ip Man. Hahaha! Getting on, we finished our movie, met up with my sis, bought us a treat by buying ourselves Baskin Robbins to end our day.

We hang out outside of Starbucks and took more pictures! ^^

Meet my sister and my bestie, if you don't know them yet.

Tell me that this baby over here is freakin cute?! I mean, I realize the whole day I was walking around the mall, all I can see and all I can hear was babies. Or maybe young ones. I guess this is what you really get when you work in a kindergarten for a month. It really does effect you and realize how freakin cute they are! ^^

Look! There's another one just on top of that big round spherical thingy! HAHAHA!

We ended our day with laughter and what else can I say? I had an awesome time with my best friend after so many months of not hanging out and talking this much! I just hope that the next time most of them will be able to go out now! :)

Till then. Ciaoz people~ ;) More update soon.

Maybe.

2010-12-04T12:16:00.000-08:00

Maybe we're friends,

Maybe we're more,

Maybe its just my imagination,

Maybe I, maybe I just wanna get next to you.

I still long for you. =\

Current Song: Next To You---Jordin Sparks.

Short update.

2010-12-03T13:22:00.000-08:00

Yes, short update it is.

It's well, 5.23am in the morning. Why am I staying up so late? Watching movies, that's why. Hahaha. I know what are you going to say! So shush. :P

Well, my fellow classmates just came back from their graduation trip to Rompin yesterday. I missed out the fun. But I guess it's my fault. So yeah, sorry guys! This coming Tuesday I'm going to see you guys in Choc's place right? :]

Miss you all with all the tiny weeny pieces of my heart. :) Well after this party which was supposedly not to be on Tuesday due to the person here who is going to fly to Philippines next Friday.

YESH. I'm going back to Philippines. Again. I'll definitely miss you all though. Worse is, I don't know what I would miss in the end of the day, you people or the company you guys give? Well, I guess its both. =]

So yes, Friday night I'll be flying, spending over time in the air and ooo lala sunrise when I arrive. LOL. So many stuff undone though. I haven't call the kinder teacher yet whom she was supposed to call ME for the job next year! =.= And I haven't done with this listing. I haven't pack. I haven't sort the books that I'm supposed to give out. I haven't buy all the items that I NEED yet. DARN. I hope I really can manage. Not to mention, not forgetting to bring CHARGER! Last time I went back, I forgot to bloody bring Ipod charger, ending up buying it. WASTE! Grrrr.

LOL. Okie. I know it's a short update. So Imma make it brief. Next update will be on the Philippines! HAHAHA! Brief enough? Yup, till then guys! Happy December to all. :]

OH SHIT. ITS 5.31AM. I HEAR THE MOSQUE CALLING OUT! AND IM NOT ASLEEP! HAHAHAHAHAH! TILL THEN VIEWERS.

Current Song: Fuck You---Cee Lo Green

I see you driving around town with the girl I love,

and I'm like "toot" you. :P

Graduation. 13/11

2010-11-16T07:47:00.000-08:00

Holy cow! Did time just passed by WAY too fast or WHAT?! I finally graduated from KC High aka HELL! Well, not totally hell, it depends on how everyone sees it.

I came to school with the most unbelievable feeling that I'm finally graduating. I put on a smile. Walk up to class. Took out my camera and started picturing with everyone one on one. In the end, I managed to get a picture with each and every one of my dearest classmates.

Szu Yan darling.

Edwina darling! Stunning as ever. :)

The smartest girl I know, Cecilia.

Oh come on, you gotta love her right? Hancockie, remember? :P

Then, the yearbook came, it is the most beautiful book I've seen. Thanks to Yi Xuan and of course not to forget a committee to make it all perfect. Including yours truly. :)

The prettiest book I've seen. =')

Yi Xuan, our form teacher, Ms. Donkey, Clarinet addict and me! ^^v

The outer cover is a mix of silver and purple. It's beautiful. The content is even more prettier because of all the amazing pictures and notes left by my classmate. Touched. :') So once I got my hands on one of it, I manage to get every single one of my classmate's signature. Everybody is being a star! Of course not forgetting more pictures!

Nicole baby! :)

WanJing! :)

Heng Choc! Love ya buddie! <3

Fumi, dear friend from Japan.

Then, the graduation ceremony started. We waited for almost over half an hour outside of the hall. But it was all worth it when we all went in.

The band was playing the music and everybody is standing to see us walk down those steps till we reach our seats, not to mention being escorted by the principal and the other school board members, the feeling of our ex classmates smiling from the crowd with a proud eyes and the feeling like we are on top of the world shouting out to the entire universe that we have just went through one of the hardest chapters of our lives and we MANAGE it. All of it was just amazing. :)

Yes, of course, I'm proud, we all are.

Once we were seated. The head of school board made his speech and so did our principal followed after that. I listen to every word, well, it's the last speech, and I can't say I won't miss it.

Usually during the speeches by the principal, I would be sitting there sleeping or playing with my friends. But not now, not on my last day. We all listened with our ears wide open except for this gal right here maybe... :P

Kimberly, stop sleeping! :P

Then, there was the prize giving ceremony. Congratz to Cecilia, Sam and of course Li Wah for making the top 3. I'm proud of you guys!

Cecilia.

Sam.

Li Wah.

And of course to the other classmates that made it through this far and the others that are awarded on other prizes.

Then, the moment of well, at least, I've been waiting for. Student representative speech. My dear friend, Kuik Yi Xuan, made it up the stage, along with the pianist, Tee Winnie, both have made a very touching moment for us seniors. How remarkable it is that Yi Xuan would be touched by her own speech and cry too. Hahaha! It was truly an amazing moment.

I cried after all her descriptive sayings about our 6 years of high school. How the teacher was, how our friends were, how our whole environment was like. It all came back to me like slideshows playing in my very own head. Oh damn, not to mention that sad piano melody. Dammit baby! XD

Then there goes the tears, flowing down over my cheek like waterfalls. Btw if you guys read sunday's (14/11) sin chew newspaper, you guys would see how ugly it looked)

That's how ugly WE looked!!!

Now that's how ugly I look with the flowers that Nicole and Chockie gave. =.=

Despite the tears, not to forget the lovely flowers that were given by my darlings! Thank you again Nicole and Hancock. :P I love you guys till the last drop of mayo left in the bottle. Nyahahaha.

Nicole, Me, Chockie and Sam.

Sam, Me, Ruiyi, Kar Yee

With the prefects.

Me and dearest Sam.

Woohooo. Me and Sam get to even picture under the big "GRADUATION CEREMONY" word. Just like High School Musical btw! Compare it yourself! :)

I went home by Phoebe's car after all the picturing mode with Sam and the teachers and classmates. Went for lunch after that with mom and nadiah and after the booking with the saloon that day, I came home and thought that I should rest me eyes for a while after all that crying. Who wants to look ugly on a special function?

So I did. I woke up, realizing it was already 3.30pm! We planned that I should be in the hotel by 5.30pm to 6pm. So I rushed to get myself ready by going to the saloon and coming back with all the makeups and dress up. Geez, being a girl is so hard. After all that hustle, I finished around 5pm. Then we hit the road.

I reached the hotel after 6pm. Damn, I was late. Then I thought of Sam who said she would arrive "fashionably" ehem late. I remember even telling her not to be late. Now, whose the one late? But guess who I met at the lift! Sam herself! Guess we're even. Haha!

Well, luckily enough. I didn't get any bad comments of the dress so far. Hahaha. Mom rawked my world and thank you for picking that dress. The whole night was full of pictures, comments, food, and entertainment! It was definitely one memorable night.

Not forgetting to mention, my feet hurts after that long hours spent with that freakin high heel. See, I told you being a girl was hard. Nyahahaha!

I guess I'll leave you with some of the pictures now.

Me and Ruiyi

Kui Mei and I.

Sze Lam aka my bf. :P Isn't "he" just handsome?

Szu Yan and "him".

Yikes. Drama!

Oh yeahhh, he got both of us in the end. Muahahaha!

My boy! Weeeheeee! ^^

See! The amount of fun we had? After I left the hotel around 11pm, that night, I clearly remembered there were fireworks! I didn't get to picture. Can this picture do then? Hahaha!

Credits to Choc for some of the pictures and photobucket for the firework photo.

Till then peeps! Blog again soon. ;)

Current Song: Already Gone---Kelly Clarkson.

We were always meant to say goodbye.

New Start

2010-11-06T09:36:00.000-07:00

Let's start again. After such a hectic year, after all the exams, all the activity, the ding dong crap that I've gone through the whole year. I now manage to sit down and type my dear bloggie again! ^^ I gotta admit, I kinda miss it. So hell to the world, I've edited the whole damn blog. Start of something new...

*HSM music plays* The Start of Something Newwww... :))

Wakakakaka. So it's alive again, as I said.

It's November already. Mom's birthday coming soon. *Thinking of presents...* :D Graduation night is in a week, so is the graduation ceremony. God, I still don't think I'm ready!

I'm not ready to say goodbye to the library, teachers, friends, juniors, and maybe even the CANTEEN. HAHAHA. Eiyo people, you gotta admit that our school canteen sells pretty nice food. ;) And goodbye to the basketball courts, volleyball court, badminton court, whatever ding dong courts that are still out there.

Most of all, I'll miss the teeny weeny bits of every memory I've made there. :)

But I guess we could all capture a certain memory in pictures right?

Like for instance, this silly picture...

Epic aint it? This was in January. And we were hyped! That's all I can say! Elynn!!! Remember this? :)

Enough of memories. I'll blog more about that in the future, I'm sure.

I went for driving kursus today. That 5 hours was the most boring 5 hours in my life!!! =.= I kept sleeping during the class. LOL. Guess that's normal.

Anyway, just a short update for now. Me wanna zzzz. It's 12.55am. O.O Sleeping TIME! XD

Current Song: Call Your Name--Daughtry.

Speechless

2010-10-01T01:37:00.000-07:00

Wow, it's been a while since I wrote my blog. I got so much stuff I wanna do with it but I just have no time and I was lazy. =\ So anyway, I'll change the skin and all of these stuff after exam, which I solemnly promise to do so. But for now, I just wanna stick to what I came here for.

First of all, 30/9 was a really bad day for most of the people I know. At least, for me. After all the sucky results that I get in return which I do think I should really face the music as I didn't pay much attention to it. I bear with the consequences then. That was fine. I was fine, because I know I would redeem myself the second time around. I have faith in me. I was okay after that.

Till I heard something which I already expected it to happen soon few months ago. Sad to say, everything I predicted came out right. I know her too well. Well, maybe not too well, but it wasn't hard to guess what she would feel if I do this. Maybe that's why we're blood related. Yet it hurts me in so many ways to see her at first like this, jumping from one to another, but now not anymore, yet somehow, it just annoys me.

You know me, I'm not a person who is capable to express feelings as well as other people do. I stay in the factual side. I'll judge what is based on and I do things with a condition and most importantly, with a mind.

If you wanted to know how I feel after what you've told me? Expect nothing. Because you left me speechless after all you did. I can't say no more. Don't expect me to tell you what you should do next, for I have already told you that this is between the matter of both of you. What WAS is both of your business and not mine.

Yet, I'm a fool to be affected by this. I can choose to let go and I can choose to hold on. But I just really don't know. Are you worth it? I don't know either. But all I know for now is that I just can't speak to you at the moment.

I tried to think in your shoes. But I just can't see, maybe because I was doing it in rage and anger inside. I can't find a good reason to make myself not angry with you.

Seeing a cousin that is totally in a state of without any clue of what she wants, hurts me. I seriously do feel sorry. Because as far as I know, deep down, her power over possession is just too strong. However me, on the other hand, have an high ego. Maybe this is something you wouldn't understand in my perspective. But these two things just can't have an agreement when it comes to matter like this. THAT, I can assure you.

I know it is hard for you. But you left me stranded and hurt by what you've done. I'm sorry, but you just left me no choice. I just can't talk to you, not for now.

Just like that, 30/9 ended up with a sleep full of rage and sadness caused by you.

There's gotta be something more to life.

2010-05-20T07:13:00.000-07:00

Yea there must be something more than this. I am sure I can get over you. Sooner or later. At least today, I passed my required stage of the day, that is, .....

Hehe, I prefer to keep that to myself. Yea, I'll get over you. Just watch me!

Yea, I got God. He'll take care of me. =D

It is really a busy month for me. Being a chaperon for my sister, watching her shows, contests and modelling shows. Its tiring. And not to mention to cope up with my studies? Got another gathering at this week and next week! :(

But its all worth it in the end, I hope?

Okay, here's a lil some some to share with you all!

Current Mood: Feeling better.

Current Song: There's Gotta Be More To Life--Stacie Orrico!

Emotionally unstable

2010-05-14T00:52:00.000-07:00

For the 2nd time, I did it again. Put the blame on me, it was all my fault. No one should have felt the pain other than me. Friends, I know you care, but just stop asking me why I made that choice, unless I open up my mouth and tell you myself.

It has only been two days and I felt like I have passed by 2 lonely weeks alone. Imagine the world without my closest people around. I'm gonna suffocate soon. But whose to blame but me? I brought it all to myself.

But there's no turning back, even if I want to. I chose this path, I would have to swallow all the bitterness and go through the thick and thin alone.

How I wish I could say, I'll be the one and only for you.

How I wish I could be the one who gives you love every single passing lonely nights.

How I wish I could say, I'll be all you need.

How I wish I can tell you one last time that, I love you.

But that would be a crime. I know I'd only hurt you deep inside and I know I'd only make you cry. You need someone who can give your heart and soul to you and promise you forever.

Yes, I'm a coward. I can admit to that. I'm not emotionally strong enough inside. I can happy one second, sad the next.

Maybe one day someone would have swept you away in their night and shining armor and they can accompany through those long lonely nights and hold you tight and tell you that, "I will never leave you, ever."

And although it would kill me inside, but in the end, I would just give you my sweetest smile.

We were never meant to be. Because I'm just a coward and a fool to face the world.

Current Song: Hello--Glee Cast.
Current Mood: Fucked up!

I can see it in your eyes,

I can see it in your smile,

You're all I ever wanted,

And my arms are open wide,

Because you know just what to say,

And you know just what to do,

And I want to tell you so much...

I love you. :(

Class Competition

2010-04-15T03:24:00.000-07:00

I'm still considering if I should make my blog public again. I just wanna tell everyone I'm sorry la. I don't want any hatred between one another. Especially with classmates.

So, dear classmates, team mates, friends and best of friends, I'm very very very sorry. I didn't mean to tuned up my voice, shout or get angry whatsoever. When I saw Li Wah cried... No words can really described how I felt that time.

But what's over and done is over and done. I'm okay. Just hope everyone else is.

What matters now is, we get experience from it. At the end of the day, I realize, prizes doesn't matter anymore. Especially our freakin school's prizes! == Who gives prizes and takes it back? Sounds ridiculous to me!

I like to refer things to this way.

Experience is the name that every one gives to their mistakes --- Oscar Wilde.

Sorry Senior 3 Science. :(

Current Mood: Tired.

Current Song: Papa Don't Preach--Glee Cast.

5th

2010-04-02T05:04:00.000-07:00

Happy 5th Monthsary Babeeee. :)

You know how much I love you right? Even though you didn't prepare anything this month. =.= But its ok. You love me enough already. =]

Anyway!!! Went for this speech competition yesterday. I messed it up. Enough said, yea. I prefer singing than talking on stage. I don't know why. People who agree with me, yea you know how it feels alright.

Vyiven Tan!!! Oh my gosh, you are like seriously epic man!!! "What are the influences of Lady Gaga to the society?" When I hear that speech halfway while I was memorizing, I was like WOOT?!?! O.O!!! Wow, this should be great. And I listen, I can't help it la weyh. You're just so unique. =D

We should get our pictures taken before I leave. :)

I was nominated for the class photographer and kang le(what do you call that in eng?). Anyways, at least I have something to do now. Keep myself a bit busy than usual. Although sr3 life is hectic. But yea, I can tolerate with that. ;)

Elynn, don't worry, remember what I promise you today? I'll do the job well darling. =D

Sports Day coming up. Gotta use up all that ATP and maybe run till I faint. Hahaha! Can't wait larrrhhh~ I can't believe its my last year running there. Gotta treasure it. After that is class competition, hmmmm, I'm more looking forward to that because its volleyball we're playing. :))

Excited larrrh!!!!!!!!!!!!

Note-to-self: Don't neglect studies in between.

Ok, just thought would give my dead blog a lil update! ;)

Current Mood: Happy.

Current Song: Two Worlds Collide--Demi Lovato.

Two worlds collide. :)

I do, cherish you.

2010-03-22T07:57:00.000-07:00

It's Monday today. As you know, they all say that everyone always has THAT "Monday Blues". Well, my day started fine. Don't you think its like freaking hot this morning. Feel like tearing off my uniform into pieces and turn into a big, gigantic and humongous monster call Mr. Green aka The Hulk. Or should I say the female version of it? Or not? =.=

Anyways, I spent my morning, 2 recess, after school all with her. Imagine that! I gotta admit, I've treated her differently ever since holidays. She knows that, I know that. We both cherish each other more and more now. Tong Kah Yee was thinking that maybe we could last till a year? I don't know. Maybe. We'll see. I can't promise.

Aiyerrr, 1st exam sucks like mad. Especially chinese, like totally man, nobody freaking have a 60? O.O! Surprising? Wait till you see mine. I mean c'mon la, I'm NOT chinese, I'm a Filipino. It's a total disgrace to my mother tongue. =.= I was hoping I could like gain a bit marks from my chinese essay and improve a bit at the 2nd essay instead of the 1st? Well, I just gain 0.5 marks! Great! Fantastic! Just what I need! Dong. ==

I keep telling myself, this is NOT UEC. You can still catch up on this. As teacher said "Don't let the people around you affect you, especially those who are leaving." It's true, because in this life, we, ourselves, alone, make our own choices. Unless in certain cases where you need cooperation or blah, but in this case, it is ME. I. Yours Truly. Makes her own choices now.

I choose to stay. No one can change my mind. I'm gonna risk it. No matter how hard it takes.

Wish me luck. I need all the support I can get actually. 5 Bs is enough for me to go to IMU. So hope and pray! I wanna go to IMU!!! MY DREAM UNIVERSITY!

HEARTS HEARTS HEARTS!!!

Today is also the first day I finally came to Sr3 Sports Day Rehearsal. Sorry from the bottom of my heart Elynn that I didnt make it at any day in that 1 week. When you were like announcing up front, your eyes were killing me, and when you called my name totally gave me a bullet in the brain. Bang! LOLx.

I believe we can do so much better than this. Good luck to Kuen Cheng High School's 2010 Sr3 student! We can do this. ;)

I guess that's an update?

Well enough. Gotta check on facebook and stalk. LOL.

Current Mood: Happy.

Current Song: I do (Cherish You)--98 Degrees.

If your asking do I love you this much, I do. ;)

You and I both. ♥

2010-03-12T06:55:00.000-08:00

Exam is finish!!! Yipeeeeeee! Now one week holiday! This is just so nice~~~

So after English subject, went to Midvalley with Jia Qing, Melody, Yen Chi and Peace. Gosh, I wasted like an hour then only left school? Ehemmm... But its ok. At least I still get to book Alice In Wonderland! Wooohoooo! Sorry jia qing xP

So we book the ticket, change our clothings. Jia Qing forgot her phone in the toilet!!! Lucky she could get it back. Then went to the Korean Restaurant at the top floor where the Bombasticans celebrate my birthday last year! :D

Hahaha, Jia Qing cannot manage to finish her food. Tsk tsk tsk, what a waste. I win, dear! ;) Don't waste your food next time!

Went to MPH, strolling here and there. Nothing to do actually. Just shared thoughts. At least you know how i feel now. I just couldn't wait for the movie to start. But me and darling only went alone. The other 3 wanted to watch 3D.

I'm fine with 3D or not. Because I don't see the point, they are showing the same thing right? LOL, so Jia Qing decided to watch non-3D, i wonder is it because the mad hatter aka the clown is gonna scare her any moment soon? XD

We even took picture at the centre court where they had decorations of Alice in Wonderland. It looks pretty and cool~~~ ;)

They went in at 1.30pm. And us at 2pm. We did more strolling during that half an hour time.

When we were in the movies, I couldn't really pay attention. No idea why. Maybe its because someone is always distracting me. Wth! LOL.

After the movie finished, went to find Yen Chi and Melody. LOL, I heard through the phone and thought that she wanted to meet along the bridge between MidV and the Gardens. Until I heard its at Speedy downstairs near KFC. == What the heck! My ears got problem~~~

And dear's bladder is gonna blow! Wahahaha! So cham...~ Then we went to the Starbucks at Gardens. Sit, chill, drink. :)

I wont let u take my pic dear!!! ==

That's probably my whole day. Plus, after they went, I went to Chillis with Mama and Nadiah to celebrate my 6A in SPM. I mean, not bad alrdy right? LOL.

I had lots of fun today with baby dearest~ I labbbbb~~~

♥

Current Mood: Happy.

Current Song: You and I Both--Jason Mraz.

Cause you and I both loved.

Relief!

2010-03-11T01:23:00.000-08:00

Yours truly just got her test results... Yes, SPM results! Hmmm, okok lah. Satisfied. Happy. Worth burning the midnight oil! Wtf. Haha!

After finishing the Biology test today, saw the list. I was first disappointed that I couldn't find my name, until when I look again. Woooooooshhhh~ Oh yeahhh, at that very instant, I feel like I've gone through so much. Imagine man!!! I was in the last class during primary...

And look where I am now... Haha! I'm proud to say that. Cause I seriously work my ass off.

Hmm, this would be one of the first steps to achievement. I still wanna improve more. Watch me. You'll see! ;)

Happy to hear that mama was happy about it too! :D Bet daddy is proud too~ Anyways! To all high achievers in SPM, congratulations! =]

An Idle Mind is a Devil's Workshop

2010-02-28T23:45:00.000-08:00

Elynn forced me to update JUST THE WEEK before exams. Why? Because when she is bored, she have something to see. Great timing, Elynn! *claps*

1st day without Yee Ching, suddenly missed the thought of having an extra-provider for food in class. ='( Wonder when is she gonna give me back my memoir book? Hope she doesn't forget about it either. =D

Anyways, this morning was hot! I mean weather hot! I was sweating at 7.30am in the morning. Aren't I suppose to feel relax, comfy and soothing at a normal morning weather? Oh well, global warming people! And at this kind of month, things are heating up!

Speaking about heating up, next week is Hell weak, we will be tossed into hell and be cooked, fried, steam, you name it! It will be a hard weak to go through, but not a long one neither. ;) I'm talking about exam, dears. My gosh, even though we have the least number of subjects to study. But the amount per subject too study is just too much~ Tskkk~~~.

Mariam, cope cope cope. You can do it.

Guess what, dear blog? Someone just can't get their nosy noses out of other people's girlfriend. I mean, I know there is no way I can defy human rights by not asking someone to stop their feelings right? It's still a free world, for me, after all. But I just don't feel comfortable at all. Natural behaviour, I think?

Haiz, don't wanna think too much. Don't wanna think about nothing either. As Daljit said today, "an idle mind, is a devil's workshop."

Current Mood: Sleepy.
Current Song: One More Time--Chante Moore feat. Kenny G.

Random

2010-02-12T04:01:00.000-08:00

I wanna blog. But I have no idea what to blog about.

Chinese New Year is HERE. Yippeeeee. I bet NOT everybody is happy/anticipated/excited about it. But I know everybody is happy/anticipated/excited that it's holidays.

Finally, a break from school of HELL.

And look how ironic it is, Chinese New Year and Valentine's falls on the same day. Hmmm, it'll be a freakin lonely Valentine's for sure. Tsk~~~ No sad posts!!! So skip topic~

During this holiday, I plan to reorganize my whole schedule for the whole year. Study but have fun at the same time. Train more physically for Mount KK trip this June. And "meditate" as Elynn recalls it, to think about what I really want in life.

Performance in school was NICE. Especially 24 drums festival, sorry rayray, I underestimated it. I'm blown away by the performance. I bet everybody was? :]

I also recieved lots of chocolates. From love ones to best friends to being just a friendly classmate. I cherish you ALL! XD

Went to this function in Berjaya Times Square, mainly mostly pinoys went there. To meet some artists from the Philippines! I'm just gonna post some pictures, cuz its no use for me telling you many details because you don't know them anyways.

I met a new friend too! ---- RINI! :)

Kapamilya Fiesta World, Kuala Lumpur.

Nadiah was chosen to sing! Proud of you, sis! ^^

Ambassador of the Philippine Embassy.

Minnie Aguilar, the host. She was damn funny. Cracked up my day...

Gabby Concepcion, artist. Ray, you say he's very leng zai right? I agree so too! But he is TOO OLD for us, though he looks young and handsome! =]

Carmen Soo, Malaysian model! DAMN HOT AND SEXY!!!! Love her 8 body figure~~~

Jericho Rosales, artist and singer. He's okay, charming and not to mention funny!

I heart this picture very muchieeee! <3333>

Gettin an autograph for Rini. ;)

Carmen Soo is soooo pretty! awwwwwh! :D Starstruck! xD

Current Mood: Watching-drama-mood.
Current Song: Pusong Ligaw--Jericho Rosales

Ikaw pa rin, ang hanap ng pusong ligaw.

So close but yet so far...

2010-02-10T02:20:00.000-08:00

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Current Mood: A mixture of feelings.
Current Song: So Close--Jon McLaughlin.

So far, we are, so close. =S

The 97th day...

2010-02-07T23:27:00.000-08:00

The 97th day, I was alone.
The 97th day, I have made a huge decision.
The 97th day, all I felt was sorrow.

On the 97th day, I was officially... single.

I have already made my decision, now, it's the 98th day, it felt like I have lost someone dearly. Without her presence is like my world has become so much more silent. Such a loner~~~

Who was to blame but me? All I hum about in class was the songs of a broken heart. All I kept doing in class was laugh at silly lame jokes until I cry, at least I said "I cried.". But I can't manage to be sad until I cry. It's not about whether I can or cannot, the write word for this is I wasn't able to.

If I only knew the consequences of this matter, I would have not choose to broke another person's heart. If I only knew how to broaden my horizons and see what was going to happen, I wouldn't have made a decision to even court someone. If I only knew that it will end up like this, this would not happen...

If, if, if, if, if...

My mind is full of ifs and doubts. But that really doesn't matter, what matter is this...

The lies is "I'll be there forever", the truth is "I won't be there tomorrow."

See how stupid this statement is?

I can't lie anymore. I can't do something when I know it won't happen. I can't keep promising things that I know I can't even keep. I can't do this, lying to you when I know there NEVER will be a "us" ever.

Still, among the "I can't" and "I won't" and the break up, I still feel this way...

Yes, I wanna be frank. It still hurts. How I wish I can have one more month, one more day, one more hug, one more kiss, one more minute, one more MOMENT together. I wanted one more so badly but if I keep hoping for one more, I know it won't stop. :'( So I might as well just linger on to the memories we had, the simple little things and the bitterness after all of that.

Reality hurts. I wanna stop dreaming and get on with life. I really hope you could do the same. I know you can and I know you will. :)

Best of luck to you and I know I'll hate saying this but... goodbye.

To my dearest friends, especially Mx, Heng Choc and Hannah, thanks a lot for the shoulder. You know how much this means to me~~~ =)

Note-to-self: This will be the LAST. This will be theEND. It's time to focus more on your aims in life.

"I remember when we kiss, I still feel it on my lips, the time that you dance with me with no music playing, I remember the simple things, I remember till I cried. But the one thing I wish YOU AND ME would forget is... goodbye."

Current Mood: The loner feels that she needs to sleep her way through this.
Current Song: Set You Free-MYMP.

If loving you is all that means to me,
and being happy is all I hope you'd be,
then loving you must mean,
I really have to set you free. :(

Another sucky day.

2010-02-04T05:06:00.000-08:00

Where are the days when everything went fine and we would be having fun all day long? High school was suppose to be a fun thing. Coming late in classes because you meet someone along the way and chatted for hours. Skipping homework cuz ur lazy to do it and teachers would not scold you. Cheating in a test. You name it, doing all those crazy stuff is definitely memories to be remembered during high school.

Now, high school is HELL. Hell, I tell you. I can't even enjoy it. And what sucks is, its my last year.

This is the ever 1st time after almost 4 years, I was being called to stand outside of class because I came in late. =.=

I mean, it's not like I'm late every single period right? It's not like I'm late every time you enter the class right? It's not like I hate listening to your class right? I was being sent with no questions asked. Great, as if you're the only one having a bad mood here. =.=

I hate ignorant and stuck up people, did I mention that? Showing off as if they're the ones who know it all. Being too proud as if they got what it takes to press you down like a tiny little weeny unimportant ant. =.= Doesn't matter if it's about studies, sports or anything else of that matter. Can't you just lay your nose down a little bit? I'm really not the type of person who can tolerate with this type of attitude. All I can show you is how I disgust you. You hear me? Your attitude disgusts me.

I hate people who fakes it all too! Don't talk about others dude, talk about yourself. I mean c'mon, faking your way through this? Haiz, I'm not gonna talk about this matter anymore before karma bites me in the arssseeee!

I'm sick of this shit. I'm not only sick, I'm tired. I'm sick and tired. I'm tired of talking about the same things over and over and listening to the same old topic over and over. I'm tired of arguing with people and dealing with people like this over and over. As if it never gets old, well sad to break it down to you that it DOES get old people...

I'm not trying to be rude. I'm just trying to get FACTS straight. Unfortunately, I hate writing, so I prefer typing my feelings away. So maybe, I am considering to make this blog private as long as it takes. (:

It's my personal life that I sometimes, have a hard time to share. Especially stuff that I really wanna say out loud but hoping no one would know. I wanna break free from complications.

Hannah, where are you when I needed you the most?! :'(

Current Mood: Pissed.
Current Song: Fuck You--Lily Allen

So sick and tired of all the hatred you have brought.

>.< Bad day for friends

2010-02-02T05:04:00.000-08:00

Friends are a huge part of my life. So for them to be sad, it somehow also takes away some of my happiness. Everyone has their bad days. Unfortunately this one really went down seriously bad....

Even though today is a special day for me and darling. I have to say that I did felt sad for my friends, cases from bad haircut to being accused of something. It's really a sad case and it's going to be Chinese New Year soon. (As Daljit likes to say this. :D)

I just got a sentence for all of you suckers out there. You have a life, do not interfere with others, what we do is none of your business, last time I check, we never did anything to you, all we ask is to keep your nosy nose out of our lives, it would do us a HUMONGOUS favor if you do that, thanks.

To chockie dear friend, you know we'll all be here for ya if you need us. We got your back by hook or by crook. :) We'll support ya! Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Hahaha, ok, enough of sad posts, now why in the hell did I private my blog? It's because of all those sneaky little whinny spies out there who can't keep their nosy noses out of our lives. So people who reads this, remember, what you post on Facebook or on your blog isn't safe anymore. So THINK before you POST!

That's why I choose to private it! My personal life is more important than anything else in the world. ;)

Btw, Happy 3rd Monthsary darling! XD

Till then, just a short update for now.

Current Mood: Happy yet sad.
Current Song: Haven't Met You Yet--Michael Buble

I just haven't met you yet. :)

January is ending soon.

2010-01-25T00:07:00.000-08:00

You occupy my heart. :)

Ok, first and foremost, sorry to all readers for not updating. I am definitely busy. Busy doing homework, busy texting, busy revising, busy online-ing(doing something else), busy chatting with cousins and friends. You name it, I'm really busy with EVERYTHING.

As they all say, time pass by fast when one is having fun. Yes, indeed. January is ending soon people. Before you know it, December is here and will be having Xmas else where and God knows the cycle goes on and on and on again.

Lots of stuff happen these few weeks. Congratulation to Sr3Science for pulling out such a GREAT job during last Monday's performance. We really rock. Although there were some areas that we need to improve. But for a last minute run through, we did great! *Applause!*

And because of that singing performance on stage, I manage to get back on my self-learning guitar practice by randoming picking songs, finding tabs and chords and practice along with the song. Nice eh? XD

Had an argument with dearrrr~~~ Sorry for not spending so much time with you. =( Promise I'll try as much as possible to fill your needs from now on. :D

Miao hui!!!!!!!! I don't know what do you call that in English. Is it call Spring Festival Celebration? Whatever. I had fun celebrating Robert's birthday with friends. Pictures on the way...

We finish decorating our card for Robert during the morning...

My wishes. :)

Well well well, saw some of my former classmates of Sr2ScA, can't deny that I really miss their presence. =( You know who you are. :)

And we did the calligraphy thingy. My goodness. My fugly words. No eye see. But here's the picture anyways.

After that, me and dear went to Bio lab to wait for the others to come up to celebrate Robert's birthday. When they arrived, we got ready for the cake, candles and of course cameras! XD

It was fun. Had fun. One of the high school memories I won't forget. Hahaha! The cream on his face, hahahaha! Funny~~~.

After that, just walk around the school with dear. Nothing much in the end actually. Hahaha!

That's an update for now. Gotta study computer quiz later. Phew. Quizzes non stop. =.=

Till then. Toodles!!!

Current Mood: Happy.
Current Song: Do You Remember--Jay Sean Feat Lil Jon & Sean Paul.

There's nothing left to say,
Don't waste another day,
Just you and me now,
Everything will be okay. =]

Hectic-ness.

2010-01-15T00:36:00.000-08:00

Is there even such a word? Hectic-ness. Lol!

Whatever, my life is seriously hectic now. That's all I can say. Catching up on revision every night. Doing maths, physics, chemistry almost every night. Don't mention about homework la, I'm talking about revision. Revision itself is already making me using up almost all of my time. What more about homework? ==

Recall what Mr. Daljit say, "Oh, so you have a lot of homework today? Good, I'm gonna add on." Greeeeaaaat! Just fantastic. =.= Enough to kill a student already.

So, just bare with me if I don't update or whatever. It really is a "never-ending" homework. ='(

Hoping for Chockie to update her blog soon. So I can grabbbbb photos. Teeeheee!

Sr3Science are performing their class performance on Monday. Need to go through hua jie first. Shet. ==

Well, that's a short update. :) Will be back asap!

Current Mood: Busy busy busy.
Current Song: One Less Lonely Girl--Justin Bieber.

I'll show you what you are worth,
one less lonely girl.

My day.

2010-01-10T23:51:00.000-08:00

Dear bloggieeeee,

My goodness bloggie! Do you know how many times I kept sneezing and sniffing in school today? I am running down with a cold duh... Its torturing sniffing and holding the handkerchief every time.

Oh and guess who has new rules? Our dearest school. They are now having this new system on LINING UP? o.O Greatttt! Fantastic!!! (Imitating Mr. Daljit! hehe) My teacher has to practically come up from her office to check on us and see how we LINE UP. I mean come on, we're high school students for GOODNESS sake.

Oh oh oh, lining up two by two and hand in hand isn't enough. Our dearest vice principle kept whacking people left and right. Just as Bio teacher said, he SHOULD do the questioning before whacking. But nooooooo, our vice principle decides to do the whacking no questions asked!

By the way, when we went in to the hall, the space for us Sr3 students were SO LIMITED that somehow, they thought that all Sr3 students are smart enough to contract in a way for us to fit or maybe they were thinking that we're not that FAT or maybe they just plainly don't CARE. Whatever. The young ones are always the one being cared and loved first. We're used to that. ==

Space limited isn't enough dear bloggie. Our cute vice principal kept pointing at SR 3 SCIENCE and asking SR 3 COM to move to the right. Of course we didn't move, because we're not sr3com right??? Till he come down with the "sword" and made the clearing. ==

Greaaaaaat! Fantasticccc! ==

I'm totally SPEECHLESS.

I'm saying this with ALL DUE RESPECT and I am not showing a sign of disrespectful. I'm just pointing out what I think and saw. Just updating my bloggie guys!

Back to topic, after finishing that awesomely "fantastic" assembly, I am starting to pay attention in class and not sleeping anymore. Props for that! I'm improving. It's good. It's the way to success. Hahaha! Exaggerating here! XD

I love Mr. Daljit man!!! He rocks la weyh! Finally during my 6 years of English class, I LEARN something. Me and the others kept laughing during his period. Woohooo! Shet. I'm crazy.

Speaking about English. Finally saw Ms. Malar today. She seem weak, down and she slim down! O.O Her mom passed away. My deepest condolences teacher! Hope you get well soon and hope my little gift would cheer you up. :)

Till then, there goes my day. Will update more soon!

Conquer studies. Mariam, you can do this!

Current Mood: Study mood.
Current Song: Goodbye--Miley Cyrus

The memory I wanna forget is goodbye. :(

Sr3.

2010-01-08T22:27:00.000-08:00

For my 300th post. I'll talk about my first week in Senior 3.

Senior 3 meaning responsibility, assignments and more pressure. All of this I have to comment about. It was just the first week and yet it feels as though I'm already in March or something. Homework piled up like mad. Besides, we have to keep reviewing what we have just learn in school. Plus, tons of tons of activities coming up. I barely have the time to even breathe. Am I saying that breathing is wasting my time? Haha. Whatever.

Told ya, more responsibility, assignments and pressure.

I have no choice but to review every night. Even though it was just that few pages, but still, it matters if you do not catch up in class. One period meant a lot. So no time to sleep, whine or talk about during those periods.

Teachers were ok. Nothing special to talk about. I salute Mr. Daljit, no idea why. Hahaha! His english.... Hoooooooo! Shet. No word to describe. Just salute... :)

Had a "talk" with Mei Xian on the van going home. Talk about loadsa stuff as usual, from school to friends to gossip to here and to there. Somehow you know, you can just talk whatever is on my mind or whenever I just don't know how to describe my feelings. You really know how to read my mind! Hahaha! It's like you know how to put my feelings in to wordsss. Nice one friend, lucky to have ya still! :))

Anyway, got so many stuff to do. So little time. I feel pressured already. I can do this. I know I can. xD

Happy 300th post! Hahaha!

Current Mood: Homework Mood. =x
Current Song: When love takes over--David Guetta feat. Kelly Rowland

It's complicated, it always is.
That's just the way it goes.

I'll miss home.

2010-01-03T18:53:00.000-08:00

I'm writing this a little bit earlier so that I won't have to update when I go back to Msia. Gotta admit, I'll miss home. Even though it was just a 4 weeks holiday. I'll miss the food, the places, the people more than ever. Let's recap what I have done here.

I arrived at 16 Dec. Didn't get a chance to celebrate couzzzie's Kazel's birthday. ='( Can't blame me, cause I haven't met you yet. xD And I don't know where you live. lolx! Or not I would have brought something from Msia for you. <3

Ahhh, out of topic already. Coming back coming back. Went to Matabungkay Beach, Batangas was the 1st family affair I had here during 2009. Hell of fun! Amazing sight seeing, love the beach, love the "kubo", love the people, love EVERYTHING.

After that, what else did I do here. Let's see... Hmmm. Ahhh, I went to Manila for more sight seeing on statues of Jose Rizal, Manila Bay and bla. Saw the Mall of Asia although I can't get to shop there cause its so damn HUGE! And also stopped nearby to eat tea while using the nearby church as a view. Weird right? Haha!

What else? What else? There's MOREEEE! Visit the old folks home which my mom donated to. Ooooo~~~ :D Had fun getting to know them and what they have been through. Just touching. :)

I went to Kamay Ni Hesus with Tita Cora who made the trip alot more fun. Beautiful view(although it was raining), nice statues, nice churces and nice food. =D

Next next next, went to orphanage where I meet kids who have been abandoned. :( Really such a pity. On that same day, we went for horse riding in Tagaytay! Wooooooo! xD Oh! And on that same day, went to some fish feeding area in Sta. Rosa. Many many many fishyyyy. WOW!

I'll miss you, AJ!!!! =(

After that 3 activities in 1 day, I met my amazing cousins during 25th of December. Santa, although I didn't have much on my Xmas day. But giving me 3 amazing cousins who understands and mostly have hella of fun with was the best gift you ever gave me!!! =3

After that was outing to SM mall with cousins... Bonding time! :D

Will keep you 3 amazing person in my memory wherever I go. Love you! <3 Where else did I went? Ahh! Villa Sylvia Resort, we went there for picnic and swimming.

On that day we went to MORE antique churches which were build during the 18th centuries. One of them was used for shooting a teleseries. :)

I spent my amazing new year here with family. Too bad Kazel has to leave halfway and couldn't be there with us during new year. We would have had much more fun with her around.

There you go, others that I didn't update about are updated now. And other pictures that you see in fb are not updated here is because they are not that relevant. :) I had TONS of fun. I'm spending my last day here wisely, carefully and memorably. Cause darn, its my last day for christ sake! God knows when I'm gonna see this lovely place again.

Trish is coming by later to help me pack. Haihz. Till then folks! Next post will be in Msia. Toodles!!!! xD

Current Song: Run This Town--Jay Z feat Kanye West & Rihanna
Current Mood: Spending my last day wisely!!!

We gon' run this town tonight. :)

New Year. New Resolution.

2009-12-31T20:30:00.000-08:00

New Year. New Resolution.

Let's recap my past year resolution, shall we? :)

speaking tagalog fluently. (Hmmm, still accomplishing that but I improved! Well at least I managed to talk.)

passing my SPM with hopefully as much A's as possible.(Let's see the result in March, shall we?)

good interaction with my new class.(Hell yeah did I accomplish this.)

hopefully become a better person and reduce some of my bad habits. (No comment)

Anywhooo, they said put the past in the past and move on, right? This year's new year resolution...

Concentrate fully on studies.
Be a more disciplined person.
Practice harder on my tactics in taekwondo.
Stay out of trouble.

There you go, simple resolution, I didn't say it was easy to complete. ;)

2009 was definitely a good year. Has its ups and downs, but whatever, I had fun. I get to know great people from my class and who knew that people from sr2scA can be so great! I'm lucky to know them. Not only people from school are great, I get to meet other great friends outside. Really, I couldn't ask for more.

2010 is now full of plans, tests, ideas and many more. All of that, I shall conquer. All of that, I must go through. Hell yeahhh, I'm ready. Having a whole new determination is actually a very good feeling, you know? ;)

Goodbye 2009 and Hello 2010.

Bring on the fight, I'm ready. =]

Current Music: Gravity--Pixie Lott
Current Mood: Normal. =.=

Gravity, pulling me back, pulling me in.

I heart my cousins! <3

2009-12-28T05:29:00.000-08:00

I heart my cousins. I really do. Just adorable!

They went to my house around 1pm. 3 of them, Trish, Donita and Kazel ride on the car with us all the way to SM Mall. =]

First, we rounded around SM to see what we were gonna do. And we ended up at the arcade! Cool-ness, but super hot there, no idea why. Maybe because everything was so crowded and it was dark. ==

Anywaaaaaaay, I had tons of fun with the 3 of them. Picture time!!!

Donita, Trish and Kazel...

Was wondering when I could drive on a real car... =.=

Trish! :)

Meet my annoying cousin, Jemlyn. =]

Donita and Kazel.

Hahahah! This guy uses his butt to dance, sorry I can't take a good pic of him dancing with his butt. LOL!

If I were to tell u there's karaoke room in an arcade, would u believe me??? Well, believe me, there is.

After the arcade, we went to McD. :) You know McD here has coke float while Msia's McD doesn't have. Hmmf.

Me. Donita. Trish.

Kazel. Jemlyn. Nadiah.

We sat there for almost an hour. Talking about many many many things. We didn't know where to go after McD, so we just window shop around SM. lol!!! After we got tired, we sat at the nearby food court, looking at other people and just chatting.

They said my eyes look like some Japanese guy call Keito Okamoto? No idea who the effin is that. ==

Keito Okamoto.

Hmmm, eyes are like mine? Don't think so. Strongly disagree. To me, I think HE is more like a SHE? lol...

Me. Kazel. Trish.

Nadiah and her so called idol, Donita.

Me and Kazel.

We chatted till my mom came and pick us up. We all ride in 1 car going home and we hang out at my house till it was nearly dinner.

It was fun, I can't actually elaborate how much fun I had with them but erm, yeahh, it was fun. LOL. ==

Current Music: Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas--David Archuleta ft. Charice
Current Mood: Anticipating.

And have yourself a merry little christmas night. :)

Trip with the family! :)

2009-12-24T02:09:00.000-08:00

As you all know, I promise I'll update the post that me and my family went to Lucban, Quezon during the 22nd of December. Approximately 3 hour drive from my house. Crazy driving. Super traffic! But awesome trip!

Kamay Ni Hesus meaning Hands of Jesus. :)

The place I'm going to is some SORT OF batu caves u can say. Ehem, it doesn't have a cave though. And it's not Indian statues your looking at. LOL. Similarity? It has many many stairs going all the way up.

This is the lovely view, nice right? :D

We went through the Garden of Eden.

Family picture in the Garden of Eden.

Adam and Eve! *love at 1st sight? haha! joke...

I guess you get the story through the picture? lol...

"Through the Sin of the Old Adam, we lost Paradise." What we read in komsas was true guys. LOL!

Tita Cora, Nadiah and Mom. (:

Keep praying people! :)

The view is just BLOODY nice right?! O.O Mesmerizing!

My grandma is 70+, and she can still climb, no questions asked. Salute! :)

The amazing view. :)

Tita Cora.

Haih, beautiful VIEW! :D

After many many statues and stairs to walk up to, we finally reached the top. :)

Woohoo! :D

This is the view from the top.

The weather was foggy and it rained. LOL!

Tita Cora and her silliness. :D

After all that climbing, we went to the church nearby. The church was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G-L-Y beautiful. The decoration, walls surrounding it, just amazing.

Have you seen a dog this skinny?

After the touring, we FEAST! :)

Pancit and Hab-hab! Yummy yum! <3

That was one of the place I visit in the Philippines. Nice eh? I am having tons of fun. I met long lost cousins which relate to MORE and MORE cousins which I didn't know of. Glad I have them, they are AMAZING! ;)

Will update our outing soon! =]

Current Song: Here We Go Again--Pixie Lott
Current Mood: Having fun! (:

Boom boom boom,
I need ma-ay medicine!

Wake up dude!

2009-12-21T05:47:00.000-08:00

Guess what, readers? I seriously have a healthy life now. Waking up early in the morning at 8am and sleeping at 10.30pm everyday since I came to Philippines. Wow-ness!

I eat breakfast, lunch and dinner everyday, I exercise almost everyday, and I poop everyday! Wow, freaking. I could get used to this. :D

Having problems lately. Personal problems. Already sent the letter I wrote, now just hoping on a reply. Which I seriously hope there is.

Going out again tomorrow. This time we're going to Lucban, Quezon. Gonna climb up there to see that huge cross sign on the top. I'm gonna update about that and the old folks home post! :) Stay tuned. =]

By the way, Christmas is coming soon!!! Merry Xmas to all!!! Wishing you and your family a pleasant one too~ :))

Till then, buhbye!

Current Mood: Confused.
Current Song: M U T E D.

I hate this feeling

2009-12-20T04:31:00.000-08:00

Emo post ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The feeling of having no one to talk to. The feeling of being isolated. The feeling of being talked about. The feeling of confusion.

I hate it all.

I regretted staying here for 3 weeks. I am definitely not enjoying my holiday due to noisy, corny, annoying neighbours.

I wanna go back to Msia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Arrrrrggggggggggggghhhhh! =(

I don't want to see her face. Eeeesh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't wanna deal with low mental people. I don't wanna deal with people who are just cold hearted. I just wanna get my mind out of this.

You're gone just when I needed you most. But I can't blame you.

Current Mood: Pissed.
Current Song: Just when I needed you most--Randy Van Warmer.

But I miss you more than I,
missed you before and now,
where I'll find comfort, cause you
left me just when I needed you most.

Hello from the Philippines! xD

2009-12-18T20:48:00.000-08:00

Okay, finally can find some free time to update my blog. Actually, I was bored, so I decided to update. =x Hahaha! Anyway, here's an update!

Arrived at the LCCT airport at around 12am? The check-in line was so long!!! And guess what? Our ticket got declined. We spend another approximately rm2k, what the f***.

We could not book seats that are 3 together, so we have to sit seperately. Haihz, luckily we can still fly. Or not I really would be disappointed and pissed. == Haha! But I really had a nice flight. It didn't felt that long, as Jia Qing said. LOL. Cause I have Eclipse and a very nice and open auntie sitting beside me...

It's Eclipse the BOOK, not eclipse the candy jia qing. Tsk tsk tsk.

Arrived at Philippines 10 minutes earlier than the arrival time. Nice!!! :) We arrived at 5am instead of 5.10am.

Meet my grandma in the left and my cousin, Jemlyn in between. :)

The streets in my neigbourhood.

Rest on the 1st day... Talk to friends and slept. :D

Went to Matabungkay Beach in Batangas the next day. During the journey, I actually enjoyed sight seeing now. I took many pictures of the view if you can see my facebook. LOL! No idea what went into me.

Meet my grumpy uncle! Uncle Jimmy aka Tito(uncle) Jimmy.

Tita(auntie) Jenalyn and Ate(sister) Joy... By the way, it's pronounce as Ahhh-Tehh. Not ate as in past tense of eat. ==

Isn't the view just NICE?! xDD

And we arrived!!! Matabungkay Beach!

Oh pretty pretty view, I could just fall in love with you. =]

We rode in one of those "kubu", that's what you call in tagalog. :D

Picnic in the beach! :D

They both went to swimming. Jemlyn was scared! :D

Welcome to the whacky family. ==

We ride in this...

We saw many view. But I guess you'll be bored by them so I put on a few only. I get to see corals by the way. Just beautiful! :)

Corals! xD

After the sight seeing and the beach and the picnic and everything, we went back. Got a few souvenir from the beach. :) Yeap jia qing, one of it is yours. =] One of the 5 turtles is yours. :D

Picking up pineapples in the way?

Okay, that's about an update. I really really really seriously summarized it. More pics on facebook. =]

I am seriously seriously seriously missing you la weyh... Really is killing me. And I see lorraine everywhere I go. Help me. I could break down and cry tonight without you. Yea maybe I should just cry myself to sleep. ='(

Current Mood: Dead without you.
Current Song: I could fall in love--Selena.

I could lose my heart tonight,
cause the way I feel I might lose control,
and let you stay.

SPM IS OVER and DEAD!

2009-12-14T02:23:00.000-08:00

SPM is over and done suckers! Burn them books and get ready for a whole new experience. Not for me though cuz I'll still be stuck in that old school. == To those who are wearing their pinafore as their last day in high school today, well I wish you the best of luck out there. Whoever you are, I'll miss you! :)

And soooo, I decided to post a few shoutouts sent to those out there who are close to me, I'll never forget ya! Remember that! =D

Evelyn: Darling!!! Remember how you always console me when I have "relationship" problems, although you don't have any experience whatsoever. I'm amaze and inspired by you sometimes, really been an amazing friend these past few years! Millions of thanks!!! :)

Cheryl: You sat behind me and I just can't get enough of you although sometimes you might be just annoying. Remember the time we ran away from the principal? You, me, Nicole and Choc? Hahahaha! Really a memory deserved to be remembered! Don't forget that I love you man, ok? =]

Nicole: NEEEECCCCOOOOO!!!! I'll miss hanging out with you. Your the fun one to talk to! I'll miss you!!!! =( Remember, don't suck up ALL the problems to yourself, i'm sure you'll get through it all. Should I call you the strong nicole? o.0 LOL!

Ashley: Sorry friend that I can't help celebrate any of your birthday ever since I met you. I hope you like the Domokun we gave you... You definitely have made not mine but everybody's life special! Don't forget me or the next time you forget me I'll smack you even if you are the President of the US! ==

*sorry guru, can't find a picture... =(*

Yen Chi aka Guru: I have to kneel down and praise you and your skills! Hahaha! I know you'll miss her but no worries, we're all here to look after her. =D Thanks man, for everything! From advices to jokes and to just being a plain friend. I appreciate that. =]

Ruiyi: Hey, even though I know you for just 2 short years, but your easy to get along with. With your brains, I'm sure you'll go anywhere. It was very nice meeting you! I'll never forget you! One of the 3 musketeers of Elynn gang! LMAO!

Credits of the pictures all goes to Choc!

Lol, I can go on forever and ever and ever but I really just can't. So if i'm missing you out, sorry! But I'll miss everyone that is going! There's just too many that I can't post them out here. :) So, to you guys who are going...

BEST OF LUCK! Remember to visit Kc and drop by sr3sc! =]

Chinese is over, RELIEVED! You know how suckish my chinese is, right? Pfft, I really nearly cried when I finish paper 2. ='( I don't even know if I have the courage to see my results... =(

I bought cammy already! I know I said Canon SX120, but the promoter managed to really convinced me and my mom to buy Canon SX10. The difference is on the quality of the image and I bought it at rm1699 instead of rm1999. rm300 bucks is worth saving! =]

I LOVE MY CAMERAAAAAAAAAA~ *dont get jealous honey! =)

Leaving to Phili tomorrow night, is anyone gonna miss me? No worries, updates on photos, in facebook and blogging will still be continued. That's for sure!

Will miss my buddies that are leaving this year very muchieeeee!!! =(

Woohoo! I love this pic. == Although I am short. Eeeesh... Need to play more basketball.

Current Mood: Sad, happy, relieved.
Current Song: Starstrukk--3OH!3 feat. Katy Perry.

You find another girl across the bar,
cuz l.o.v.e is not what this was.

Update!

2009-12-08T05:22:00.000-08:00

There, giving you yet another update.

1 subject left!!! Gosh, don't you think SPM just went by a little too fast? I mean, c'mon, I don't even have that feeling like "Wow, so many subjects down already and 1 freaking chinese left?!?!" O.O Fast...

Next wednesday flying off to Phily. Will miss everyone. Will miss baby, friends, and will miss out Ash's bday! :( Sorry girl, ever since I met you I never get to celebrate your birthday. I'm very very very sorry. Haihz, and this year is your last year! Darn it! But will send you my love from phily for sure! :)

I hope I can get the camera that I kept bugging my mom lately. :D I really want that camera! If that's the only present she'll give me for Xmas, I won't mind! lol... Canon or Nikon? Neeco said Nikon. Chockie said Canon. Shiattt. Die. See 1st la!

Nikon Coolpix P80.

Canon PowerShot SX20 IS.

What else can I update to you? Hmm, oh! Going out with Neeco, Chockie, Nadiah, Cheryl, Wan Jing, Jess, Yee Ching, and and and one more person... =.= Tomorrow! Wow, watch New Moon... AGAIN! Yay!!! Bella wait for me! =x

Don't mind me, I can't get enough of New Moon. Erm, I officially changed my old lappy. So, no hanging this time. Hooray!

I haven't wrote down the list I need to bring to Phily. Shit shit shit! =x

Current Mood: Curious.
Current Song: Cry Me Out--Pixie Lott.

You'll have to cry me out...

I'm still breathing...

2009-12-03T08:34:00.000-08:00

Yes people, I'm still alive and breathing and living life...

Just to give u a quick update. I have 2 more subject to go before I am FREE from SPM forever more. Books are piled up everywhere in my room, looks like a jungle. Need to fix em before I go back to Phily. =(

2/12--1st Monthsary! What a coincidence we met for the 2nd time without any plannings whatsoever. Does this mean anything, dear? LOL. I hope it does. And it was on our Monthsary DATE lerh!

Fate and destiny works in a mysterious way. And I'm loving it. :)

Went and watched New Moon today with mommy and sis.

Those who said that the movie suck... Hmmm, I gotta say, I have to disagree. It's nice, romantic, touching in all sorts of ways. Maybe you guys just don't know how to see or just paying attention on other people's body(ehem... Jacob a.k.a the wolf?) or I don't know. ==

New Moon! <3

Call me weird or whatever, I melt in my seat everytime they were about to kiss. LMAO!

Doesn't Bella look pretty? Mom agrees. I can never get enough of her outer looks.

Her hair, her eyes... gosh... melts*

Call me weirdo again, I know I should get crazy over Edward or buffed Jacob but I'm not. Blimey! :D

Can't wait to watch it on the 2nd time with honey... :)

Most of the subjects are down, 2 more subject to go. SPM please treat me kindly...

Current Mood: Higgghh~~~ New Moon~~~!
Current Song: I Can Transform Ya--Chris Brown.

Your my baby girl shoulda know I did it for ya.

Nothing.

2009-11-11T20:36:00.000-08:00

SPM is freakin starting at next Wednesday! Nervous much? A little. But I know it'll pass by soon.

Nothing is going to make my mind struggle for this important exam.
Nothing is going to annoy me.

No NONSENSE is going to trigger my mind.
No emotions of yours is going to stop me now. Blame me for being selfish and thoughtless. But this is SOOO not the time to argue with you.
No emotions of mine is stopping me from studying.
Nothing is going to stop me.

I must be... invincible, for now.

"Mind my filthy mouth, but I can't tolerate your sucky emotion." =.=

Current Mood: Prepare for battle!
Current Song: Fly With Me--Jonas Brothers

If it's you and me forever,
if it's you and me right now,
I'd be alright. :D

=)

2009-11-03T23:06:00.000-08:00

"Two souls with but a single thought, Two hearts that beat as one. "

2/11/2009 <3

Just as simple as, I love you. =)

"If I know what love is, it is because of you. "

Current Mood: Happy.
Current Song: Never Gonna Be Alone--Nickelback.

I got to let you know,
your never gonna be alone... =]

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

2009-10-30T21:28:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HALLOWEENNNNNN~~~~!

Just so you know, I don't normally celebrate halloween. I think many of us don't. LOL! Guess what! I woke up late today, and I am now sitting at home missing my friends and blogging.

I woke up this morning and I was like SHIT! 9AM ADY!? ARRRRGH! Fine, spent 2 hours lying at my bed thinking about nothing. =.=

Party later at 6pm at Bukit Jalil Outdoor Stadium! Can't wait. If nothing goes wrong... I'm going to watch All American Rejects perform LIVE! WOOOOHOOO!

Hope to see any of you whose going!!! Ciaozz!

Will upload pictures from the concert!

Current Mood: Lazy.
Current Song: M U T E.

treasure each memorable moment.

2009-10-27T02:01:00.000-07:00

Treasure each memorable moment, loving someone, no matter how short the time is, it doesn't mean you don't love them any less. So treasure each moment!

Congratz Chockie, I wish you all the best. You know what I mean. ;D I'm happy for you, hope you guys will go through everything by hook or by crook and through the better and worse. (sounds like a wedding much?) buahahah!

Ashley, don't frustrate yourself ok? You are just too nervous. So, just cool down and don't blame things on you. You were starstrucked! xD And don't say stupid things like your gonna die tomorrow ok?! You are not. Even if you are, I forbid it! =.=

Someone has their phone broken? Not broken, keypad malfunction. :( No more sms-es, for now. You should know that I'm also going to be tortured for not talking to you.

Mei Xian, cheer up buddy. Take this as a lesson for the future ok? Everything happens for a reason.

My life... is not complicated, it's as simple as it can be. I have friends, family, and everything I ever need beside me. There's just 1 thing missing...

That's you...

I have been keeping this secret for too long lah!!! I wanna burst already! I feel very uneasy and excited at the same time. But hoping that this won't be another failure or maybe another lie. I hope my source is correct. I really hope so. Cause repeating the same move is exhausting and uneasy for me.

I WANNA BLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like I have never been blown before.

SPM CANDIDATES!

Study hard for the Suffering Pathetic Month that is about to arrive, ok? I changed Sad to Suffering. Much better. :D

Gtg, do my chores, before Mom goes crazy again and gotta read 3 more babs of sejarah and gotta finish off my Add Maths sec. B and C.

Current Mood: I just wanna tell you... that I need you...
Current Music: Belle of the Boulevard--Dashboard Confessional

I'm hoping that this could work, somehow... :)

Sad Pathetic Month

2009-10-24T02:46:00.001-07:00

Sad Pathetic Month--SPM.

It shows its pathetic-ness through paper and gives us all the sorrow and sadness we could have in a month. Great, just great! Credits to Evelyn for inventing this. =]

It's going to rain outside... AGAIN. Listening to Chris Brown's Forever. I miss his songs, he became totally invisible ever since Rihanna incident, I think...? Don't care la, I am very lazy to update these days. Ashley has been updating left and right already and Chockie... not even a post after her bday, I think? =.=

Loadsa stuff happen la, mainly I still go back to school even though its my study break. Really no choice, can't study at home. I can be more focus at school than at home. Weird, eh? Hehe. Robert even said that we complain we don't have holidays when we were in school, but when we have holidays we came back to school. Hhaha! So true!

Sorry that I have no news to give you people. Mainly most of my thoughts are self feelings. :)

I wanna watch Jennifer's BODY!!!!! I told you guys I love Megan Fox ever since Transformers II, right? She is sexy and damn a turn on! Even Ash agrees with me! xD

HELL YES!!! Anyone wanna watch with me? Ask me out then! =] I would be willing to accompany you!

Tell me that this is just so cool! O.O

Enough of Megan Fox. I attend a wedding just now. It was really totally last minute. Mom just call up and say, hey dress up, we're going to a wedding. And I'm like, what?!

You people should know that me and wedding just don't come along. I hate wearing stuff that are suppose to wear to a wedding. Gowns, high heels, dress, skirts and all of those is just NOT ME. I just thanked God that Mom didn't buy a skirt or a dress or even a gown for that wedding! Phew. =D

I ate like nobody's business and they kept serving me drinks non-stop. My glass are not even half finished and they start refilling it for me already! I went to the toilet 3 times in 2 hours! O.O

Oh yeah and the bride was pretty! Too bad I couldn't picture with her. Whatever la, this is the ever first time I ate this much in a wedding. =.=

I love the songs they played in the wedding, totally in the love zone mood! The vocals, guitar, piano, wow! There was actually one song that made me wanna sleep. Too relaxing. It seems like the couples have many love songs. LOL! And they seem madly in love with each other. :))

I enjoy looking at couples and how happy they are with each other.

Current Mood: Happy.
Current Song: Save The Last Dance For Me--Michael Buble

While we're apart, don't give your heart to anyone. :)

She can talk! =)

2009-10-15T02:13:00.000-07:00

I just feel like I have the urge to blog today. After all, I'm keeping you guys updated. We went back to school during the study breaks. I have wasted 7 days of my study break. =.= Crap. No doubt, I had fun too! Now that I can actually talk, eat, and drink well! ^^

If you were given an answer sheet, would you copy?

Chockie and Nikki! :)

We had fun during study breaks. More pictures to be uploaded by Chockie in Facebook! =]

Oh yea, by the way, do you know during open school, I got back one of my chinese exercises on writing and got an A- for it. And guess what teacher have to add in???

Of course it was me who bloody wrote it la! =.= Grrrr, then why the heck do you give me an A- for?! I hate it when teachers don't trust me. Pfft, I hate my chinese teacher.

This morning, I quickly rushed to the lif. This is why I freakin hate to be in the 8th floor building. You have to fight and wait for the lif. And if you can't wait, you have to run up all the way to the 6th floor.

It'll be good, if you are practicing stamina. =.=

Anyways, me and my friends came down from our class at our usual 7am time to the volleyball court. Gosh, so many people! =.= Didn't sweat much too. =(

I wrote a letter in class today, finally made my decision on changing my group to volleyball. Thank me Chockie! I teman you leh! =D But still on the process la, hope everything goes fine. Please Jia Hwei, convince Mr. Gan to switch me to vball! Please!!!!!

Boring periods pass by, all I did was Maths, gossip of how we escape from that freaking Leong Pak and discussing the KCN. I really hope it comes out great! <3 Anxious and anticipated because my dearest friends are the editors! =]

Gotcha sleeping Chockie and Suzie! Sleepy head! :D

So is the rest of the class after Sejarah.

Haha, Kahyee, you are so funny! :)

Best instrumental version of Pokerface I've heard so far. So damn talented! Electric guitar, bass, audio tune? and a slight taste of organ?

Speaking about music, I thought of being a music producer before. Haha, no idea la, it was just an instant pop up dream that I talked about with Nicole today. :D Music producer, BIG DREAM.

Current Mood: High above the sky. =]
Current Song: Quicksand--Britney Spears feat. Lady Gaga.

I hear your footsteps in my corridor,
But it's just my heart pounding like before.

Talking is painful...

2009-10-10T21:36:00.000-07:00

Its been 3 days, I already miss you guys! :(

This is the ever first time that I hate talking. Wow, tremendously unbelievable right?! Haha! I didn't talk for more than 10 sentences yesterday. =O Count that as a record! It seems that I have ulcer not only in the mouth, nono, I have one in the tongue too!

I can't eat, talk and drink well. But its healing... =]

Mom says its because God is punishing me for talking too much... =[

Oh God heal it soon, oh pretty please!!! :( Talking is so torturing now, maybe after this heals, I won't gossip or talk much anymore, which I doubt that VERY MUCH. lol!

Oh yeah, btw, Happy Birthday Ate(sister) Diane!!! :)

Nice to know that I have such a cool and kind step sister like you! =]

Oh yeah, Britney Spears has this new song! Gosh, got me addicted daoooo! Thanks to Chockie for the intro! Her new song "3" which you can listen in my playlist. By the way, I got addicted to its beat and melody and not its lyrics, cause I never thought that someone would write a song about a three-some... =.=

David Guetta's feat Akon's "Sexy Chick" or should I say, "Sexy Bitch" has also got inside my head. Replay replay and replay in my head, over and over and over...

Why do people make such nasty and disgusting lyrics but ended up having us listening to it over and over and over again?! All I can say is, evil temptation and seduction has its ways...

Guess whose going to Beyonce and All American Reject's concert?

I ammmmmmmmmmmmmm~~~ =]

Current Music: Sexy Chick--David Guetta feat Akon
Current Mood: Sad that I can't talk much... :(

I'm tryna find the words to describe this girl
without being disrespectful...

The pig is sick... =(

2009-10-08T06:41:00.000-07:00

I've been through a lot lately... =]

For the first in the longest time, I have finally fallen sick. :( Not fever, not diarrhea, not sore throat, not headache... I just feel pain in some parts of my body...

Yes, I am physically sick, no worries it's not mentally. =] I just have this few dots, no idea what you call them, then they magically makes you feel pain. Lol, weird right? Now it is getting worse, and I can't barely walk, talk, eat, and hold stuff. I have to do all the above slowly... Even sms-ing is a torture.

It's really torturing.

So, no school for me tomorrow and probably the day after. Stay home and relax and sleep and study in my room. I don't even feel like my moving my ass from this seat of mine. Cause you really have no idea how pain is it when I just stand up and move from one corner to the other... =(

Mom says its allergy? But I don't remember me having allergy before?!?! =.= Well, I hope this "allergy" goes away soon. Shoo shoo shoo! I don't need this, especially NOW!

I hope you said you are ok just as you said you were.

And you, if you have something to say or you have something to ask, don't hide it, just say it straight to my face. Cuz I hate to be the last to know... The last thing I want now is a misunderstanding and if you want to give me comments about what I'm doing, I STRONGLY suggest you keep your comments to yourself. Cause I don't give a damn of what you think and how I'm doing things.

Current Song: Chemicals Collide--Boys Like Girls.
Current Mood: Pissed, weak and and still weak. :(

Shut your eyes, feel the chemicals collide,
you and I. :)

Birthday GirlS... =]

2009-10-05T03:21:00.000-07:00

wow, how I wish I would do that... :)

Happeh Birthday to Chockie and Jia Qing!!!!!!! =]

Both of you make me wanna bankrupt. Spend on the pressies and the outing with Chockie, Cheryl and Wan Jing at Red Box. Bankrupt bankrupt bankrupt. There goes my whole week allowance. But it was worth it... Very worth it. Luckily, tomorrow no school! Phew.... :D

Chockie was caked by me today! I didn't intentionally wanted to cake her whole skirt but I eventually did and the feeling was awesome! =]

Now she have to wear the bai nian Tee during class. Lmao!!! :) I spend the whole day actually not listening to what teacher said. My mind was really wondering else where. Lol, don't need me to elaborate that, right?

Did my eyes just look bengkak in here or what?!

Spent time with Cheryl, Chockie and WanJing at Red Box singing. I have forgotten when was the last time I probably went for karoake. 2 years ago? Super long time larh! =.= Haha and you can't blame me, because I seldom sing chinese songs. And karaoke is really not my thing. Now I feel that chinese songs are a lot more easier to sing than english songs.

Oh yea by the way, the food sucks. Except for the salad and murtabak I ate, all of them was sucky. Lmao! But I had fun. Hahaha!!! And I realize the songs we pick got lots of kissing scenes, cannot tahan. Not used to seeing chinese mvs with kissing scenes. Hahahah! Censored censored!!! =]

P.S: I can't stop thinking about you...

Current Song: Here We Go Again--Demi Lovato
Current Mood: Happy! =]

Something about you is so addictive.

All is good.

2009-09-28T22:39:00.000-07:00

Just when everything was going wrong, everything turned out right in the end. =]

Guess I have to turn up during a few days of my 17 days of holiday due to the EXTRA Math class. Whatever, I guess I really don't mind? 17 days could be very torturing for someone who stays home with no one else to talk to.

I'm getting lousier at volleyball. No idea why. My body feels like it can't adapt much because of the 1 month no volleyball. =.=

I am at the computer lab. Nothing to do. Listening to songs. Facebook-ing. Jumping from blog sites to blog sites. No update. Please people. UPDATE! :(

I wanna go home. Nappy nap.

Till then. Cyaz.

Current Mood: Happeh! =]
Current Song: Whatcha say--Jason Derulo.

Mmm, whatcha say?

Everybody is EMO...

2009-09-28T03:01:00.000-07:00

Ha! Everybody is emo today. I felt like I've done a lot of sin today? Let's see, I've let my mom down because of my results, I've hurt a person very close to me, I offended my teacher, what's next?

This is not me. Definitely not me. My results, I never expected such a lousy result. My Chemistry, my gosh! I don't know is it because of my teacher or was it effin my fault?! I studied, yes. But she wants a perfect answer from me, well sorry to disappoint. I don't think I always give "perfect answer".

I offended my favorite English teacher. Sorry Ms. Malar. I know I have offended you. I wasn't in the mood today. I said a few harsh words, I'm sorry. Ok, I have to write at your wall in Facebook or something... =[

And you, I don't know. We really need to talk. I think we got misunderstanding... Oh and please, gimme a chance to explain.

I have far by the worst day this year.

I am not please with myself.

Current Mood: Moody.
Current Song: Whatcha Say--Jason Derulo.

Whatcha say, that you only meant well?

1st post without you.

2009-09-26T12:28:00.000-07:00

When a perfect love goes wrong. The whole thing turn over. That's what you get, when you don't tell the truth. That's what you get, when you hide everything. That's what you get, when you can't even say a simple confession.

THIS IS WHAT I GET!

Whose angry at who now? Myself angry at myself. I feel like I just died inside. I don't care anymore. I don't wanna care anymore! Why!? Tell me why did I fall for you!?!??!!? I'M SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF NOW! Stop pointing fingers, I know it was me who did wrong, and stop saying sorry.

I FELT WORSE now I'm without you... I FELT STUPID cause I'm no different then the others. I FELT LIKE I'VE GOT HITTEN BY KARMA cause I accuse of people doing something now I've done it myself.

This is the ever 1st time I HATE MYSELF.

I hate this feeling.

The 282nd post...

2009-09-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

I thought I can pretend as though I didn't see your post at all. But I can't... I can't pretend that I'm seeing the post over and over again and feeling the pain over and over again.

I guess you really need the time. Or maybe I should go away for a while to let you think? I'm thinking crazy, definitely...

I am so sorry that I gave you such problem, how I wish I just never existed in your life sometimes and maybe I can save so much of your problems... If I gave you such burden, I'm sincerely sorry.

I am not giving up on you. This will still remain true no matter what... That's how serious I am and that's how much I want you... I don't wanna argue with you, that's the last thing I want from you.

If you still think I don't understand you, then please, make me understand...

I hope you can consider the fact that it wasn't me who hurted you. And love is not to blame... As I've said before, she just doesn't know how to appreciate a person like you. That's her problem, not mine. But please, don't put the blame on me... If time is all you need, I will give and respect you for that...

The moment you said no and told me to forget about all of this. It's like asking a little boy to forget about the candies that has being given to him. Which is impossible... Knowing that I have you.

Now, you could only be virtually mine...

The 281st post...

2009-09-24T21:24:00.000-07:00

I thought I had you for a moment there, but it all went wrong till you said no.

It felt like I won in a lottery but instead I never gotten my reward.

I just feel... heavy in the chest.

Why do I have to pay for all the wrong that she has done to you?

Instead, I don't blame you.

But please don't leave me this way.

I'm still going to wait no matter what.

I love you

Current Mood: Still wondering...
Current Music: M U T E.

I'm not her...

Burfday at Midvalley! =]

2009-09-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

So I went to Midvalley yesterday with Bombasticans. Well almost all of them, except for Phoebe, Suzie, WJ and Jess. The others could come to Midv and celebrate me bdayyyyy! XD

I had tons of fun! We actually plan to meet up at Starbucks. But in the end, we ended up meeting at the center court. Do you really need me to go into the details? Cause I'm kinda lazy. Haha. Anyway, we scouted around Midv until 1.10pm.

In that few hours, Elynn and the others bought some food from Carls Jr. Me, Ash, Nadiah,Cheryl and Choc were outside waiting for them! :D

We all look weird, except for Nadiah! =.=

Much better. :D

So after finish buying their stuff from Carls Jr. We went in at around 1pm? Elynn was holding the water she bought from C. Jr and they wouldnt let her in. She had to threw it. Good thing the food was being kept in their BIG bag. :)

Speaking about big bag, I was the only one who wasn't carrying a bag that day. haha!

Anyway, we watched... G-FORCE!

Sorry again, for such a kiddy show. :(

We met up with Yen Chi and Melody at the cinema too! What a coincidence!!!

We own the entire ROW! Nice!!! :D

We couldn't manage to take a photo with the other 2 we met. They wouldn't let us. But erhem... I got a photo of their behind... Haha! XD

Then after the show, we went to eat at a Korean Restaurant at the top floor nearby the guitar store. I'm sure you guys should have an idea where is it.

That was the ever 1st time I ate in a korean restaurant. Unbelievable, right? I know... So, I had to have Ash to help me on the menu. lol... Here are some photos.

Busy eating people.

Yea. Now that I got your attention!

Ash and Cheryl, their the best friends and company anyone could have.

Chockie and Evelyn. The best people to talk or hangout with. Who are you talking to chockieee? Hubby? Hahaha!

Elynn and Nicole, my "calm-down" friends. :)

Choc, Ash and Evelyn lie to me saying that they want to go for toilet and they came back with a cake and a celebration. Thanks. I never really expected it. I thought these kinda things only happen in school.

There's me with a big smile on my face with a cake on my special day! :)

Before we leave the restaurant, we did this...

By the way, the restaurant has LOUSY service. So don't go! =] After that, we walk around MidV to find Ash's star paper. lol. But couldn't find one so we decided to go to the arcade and have some fun. We wanted to go to the pool area, but 18 above. So... Arcade we shall GO!

At first we played with the car racing!

She has gone N-U-T-S! XD

Me hand!

My turn!

I think she was asking me for tokens? LOL. I forgot.

Me vs. Pretty Evieeee. :)

I always wanted to know how I look when I'm driving! :D

Cheryl is sooo tense! =X

I admire this girl. Actually the machine. Cause she is dancing base on the steps in the screen with her hands in the air swinging left and right. I wonder how does the machine detect its movement... hmmm? O.o?

Then we were off to play drums! Like the ones in o2 jam. Was hell of fun! Choc and Neeco played first.

Choc vs. Neeco and Neeco won! Next was me and Ash!

Wow. I can't believe they got this! Yea, that means the game was intense.

Hehehe! :)

My bestie! I really want you to know how much I appreciate you! :))

After the arcade, everybody went home already. Well almost everybody, neeco, me, evelyn and elynn was left behind. We went to ZARA and M n G =]

They force me to put this one on. =.=

I look like I'm a robber! I love it! hahaha!

We played for a while. Then me and Neeco needed to go. :(

I had tonsss of fun. Best outing ever. =]

Other random photos!

Before Neeco came. :D

Me and Ash notice this guy with a WEIRD hair!

Toilet pictures!

You guys made it a special day for me. I love you more than anything else. =] I'll remember you guys even though I graduate. Love you!

Current Mood: Happeh! XD
Current Song: Pop--N'sync.

What we're doing its not a trend.

We need to talk...

2009-09-20T06:01:00.000-07:00

Soooo TRUE! =.=

I've been scrolling, browsing, checking about half an hour now. I found a perfect song that suits me! Will show you about it later... I woke up quite early this mornin. No idea why. My uncle called me on the phone and asked him to open the door for him from the inside. So I did.

And look what we bumped into...

This fellow! Cute aint she?

She's homeless. Which makes me love her even MORE!!! XD It's a girl by the way, according to my uncle the dog groomer expert, =.= She doesn't eat dog food! Weird!!! She eats rice and the only trick she knows is play dead. swt.

She was quite hairy at first. But my uncle took the liberty to groom her. :)

Yeap, that's him and her! :D

After that, she stayed outside of our house ever since! Lol. Went to midvalley after that... BORING! I booked the 9 tickets for Tuesday. Wow, guys, we own the WHOLE ROW. lol!

Will sms to u, call u or msn u or even fb u about the details in Tuesday, aite?

Going to Bukit Bintang tomorrow. Going to Midv with the bombasticans the following day. Will keep ya updated! :)

The song says it all about you and how I feel. Well I can't say it's about you, but erm. Close enough.

We need to talk...

Current Mood: Tired.
Current Song: Hello Beautiful--Jonas Brothers.

Cause I could comb across the world,
and see everything and never be satisfied,
if I couldn't see those eyes.

Exam Fever--GONE!!!

2009-09-17T22:43:00.000-07:00

BOOYAH!!!!

Exams are gone gone gone!!! 2 weeks, 10 days and dunno how many hours of studying, revising and exam-ing. It is finally GONE!

I don't wanna see books for this holiday. I'm sick of it! So... I'm back to REVIVE my long never updated blog. I got lots to say. So bare with me, this post is going to be LONG and I'll summarize this as much as possible.

So you don't need me to actually tell you what happen during each test right? I mean, the mood isn't here, so I can't really remember or recall what I felt during the exam. As you can see, I'm numb.

But there's one subject in particular that I can recall is Biology. That was really bloody hard, ok? I wanted to stab myself with the pen I'm holding. But it doesn't matter anymore. As Cheryl, Nicole and Ash said, it's just trials not SPM. So whatever.

Where should I start blogging? I don't even know. The only thing I can recall was yesterday. Well I did something out of my boundary and I couldn't believe I just did what I shouldn't do. Maybe I should do it. And I know I'm lousy at expressing feelings, ESPECIALLY at expressing em, it's so... erhem. No word to describe that. But it happen already. So... I can't do much but to wait.

We did crazy stuff today. Haha! After the Chinese paper, I picture a few stuff and all of us shouted out loud that we finished our trials paper! Teehee!

Cheryl was busy playing with someone's I-Phone before Chinese paper. Eeesh!

Awwwh :(

Yay! :)

Stupid fellows, stop me from taking photos just to take you guys! =.= I wasn't even in the photo! =(

Other random stuff I took during studying...

I remember I was about to cry when I couldn't catch up with time when I was studying Physics.

I remember Elynn writing this on my Physics notes when we were at Physics Lab. I love you too, Elynn. :)

I remember they say that it's bad to highlight the whole book if you want to study well. Well, this is bad.

I remember picturing this when Teacher wasn't looking! :D

Haha! These are the stuff I remember!

Oh yea, you guys know that Kanye West dissed Taylor Swift at the VMA Awards right?! Oh, but do you know that Eminem also dissed back Mariah in response to Mariah's "Obsessed" song? Hoho, I see dissing everywhere! I <3 it! lmao!!!

How could Mariah diss Eminem with a lousy song like that? What she does is just repeating the song, "why your so obssesed with me, boy I wanna know..." Pfft. Get the fuck outta here! Eminem is wayyyy better than you are...

The Warning(Mariah carey diss)--Eminem.

Eminem has dissed his mom, wife, Ja Rule... What makes you think that he couldn't do a good job at Mariah? lol!

Poor Taylor, but she was saved by Beyonce later on!

Can you believe it? Taylor just STOOD THERE! Oh yea, the person in the lion wig or whatever is Lady Gaga. I think... Kanye was drunk during VMAs. Tsk tsk tsk.

So I guess that would be an update? I wanna chase my drama now... :D Will keep you updated through the holidays! :)

Oh yeah, do me a favor and comment! Cuz its a bit cold. :(

Current Music: The Look--Ryan Tedder.
Current Mood: Relaxed after E X A M. =]

Waiting on your reply.

Psychopatic Mariam.

2009-08-31T22:24:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy. So blarrrdy happy. Very very very very happy, super duper hyper active psycho-ly happy. So happy that you don't know how happy. Do you know how happy? I know how happy. Very happy, so happy that you'll get sick of me saying happy. Gets how happy I am. SUPER HAPPY. That I could die of happiness right now... XD

Ok, I am obviously out of my psychotic mind. Really getting super high that I could die right now. This is obviously not me...

I need to really calm. Before I die of laughter. What the hell happen? Don't ask. I'm just too friggin happy.

I'm in the computer lab now by the way. Just dropping in to say, yes. I'm still alive. Although I'm dying soon. :)))

Treasure Life!

2009-08-23T02:43:00.000-07:00

You know staying at home is sometimes torturing, because you have to study and study non stop with no one to talk to but yourself? But in school, you can't really concentrate due to many reasons?

So yea I prefer to stay at home and study. While I was browsing the internet, when I'm NOT supposed to, I found this interesting video, from YouTube(duh,where else can you get videos like YouTube?)

Check this one out!

This is REAL ok?!

It's disgusting I know. But pity him la weyh! :(

We are all lucky! Thank god for all the blessings!

There are a lot more interesting videos in YouTube you know? You should take a look and browse around. Hhaha! =]

Aite, I guess this would be my last update before trials. So I guess I'll be updating after trials then. Too bad larh! 7th Sept. till 18th leh! Wanna die when I see how long I am gonna face this stupid trial! X(

Wish me luck! :) I need all the luck I can get!!! XD Oh, build a place for me to get burried just in case I die. Thanks! Haha!

Current Music: And I Love You So--Sam Milby
Current Mood: Dying soon.

And I love you so.

2009-08-21T05:06:00.000-07:00

Don't you think it is always raining these past few days. I wonder why? LOL. Anyway, we played volleyball this morning, even when the ground is wet. See, this is what you call, we don't care, we just play.

1st recess, saw her AGAIN. Both of em actually, mean didn't dare to LOOK at me. Don't know what the effin is wrong with her. She passed by not once but twice already! You see, mixed messages, making me keliru. Why can't she just say yes or no?! Eeeeesh, girls...

Imagine this, she passed by my class TWICE. Which never happens. She saw me and pretended not to see me. I said hi, she ignored me. Look like a fool! One FINE LUCKY day, she just talked to me, which is also a hard thing to find. Ok, I can't put in too much details. But there is MORE.

Elynn added, "She is a girl ah! What do you expect? We think too much." LOL! As if I don't understand any of this. Why are girls soooooooooo damn COMPLICATED?! Can't they just say they want it or not?! I'm going crazy ady leh! Is she playing hard to get? Because if she is, it is really working. Or is she just playing me? That is also working too. Please la! I'm hopeless la here!!!! =.= Stupid mean!

Change topic. First recess, something great happened to my friend. Ok, I promised I won't tell the whole story. But hey, people are dying to be in your spot now! Do you know how many people are "craving" to be in a relationship now? Desperados! lol. So cherish and thank for your blessings. We'll be here no matter what happens. *Thumbs up*

Omg, imagine how much I'm gonna miss high school after this. The little little details of our memories. Wow, I'll miss you guys much! Don't talk about that, we're not graduating yet!

Back to volleyball, I nearly injured my thumb today because of volleyball. My thumb pain daoooo. I nearly wanted to cry. Went to find St. John for an ice bag, Pei-I went down to the canteen and get ice for me. Thanks! After that, my thumb felt better, I was circling the objective answer and my hand was shivering while circling it. =.=

Okay, I have nothing else to blog. HAPPY HOLIDAYS GUYS! Study for SPM trials ok?! Btw, its really raining very hard. I hate it. Makes me feel sleepy and piggy. Gotta run, bye!

Current Music: Sweet Dreams--Beyonce.
Current Mood: Confused still. Angry still. LOL

You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare.

I hate confusion.

2009-08-20T05:29:00.000-07:00

I hate CONFUSION!!! I spend almost the half the day wondering what should I do. Compare and contrasting. Asking myself why in the hell would I like a person.

I can't even concentrate playing volleyball today. My mind was wandering else where and my eyes are looking somewhere else. Volleyball is suppose to be a game that makes me sooth myself and release my stress.

Now even the thought distracts me from playing volleyball. What more in class?

I saw her today. Heart melts. I bet even bombasticans don't know which her I'm talking about now. It's really confusing, frustrating and heart breaking for me.

I get along with one well and yet the other not well. But I think I'm attracted to the "not well" more, even though I want to choose "well" but I can't! I just can't! I hate myself for falling for you.

Is she playing hard to get? Is she faking? I don't know what she's thinking. Which makes me so frustrated sometimes. Sometimes I just want to tell her off and say "If you want it, gimme a hint, if you don't, tell me off!". Because I hate myself feeling hopeless and worthless. :(

It's frustrating.

The song that we chose for Talentime suits me now.

"Waiting for your call I'm sick, call I'm angry, call I'm desperate for your voice."

Just tell me what the friggin hell you want la!!! Is it so hard?!?!?!?!

Current Music: It's Not Over--Secondhand Serenade.
Current Mood: FRUST FRUST FRUST!

You are breaking my heart.

Feelings. Stressed.

2009-08-19T01:42:00.000-07:00

Feelings, is an affective state of consciousness, such as that resulting from emotions, sentiments, or desires. Humans living without feelings, can either live a much better life or a much complicated life.

The point is, I'm confused. I'm very confused now. I didn't know wat I wanted, I thought I knew. But now it makes it more hard to interpret a person's mind. I guess it always is.

Sometimes I just really want to read a person's mind and know what I am to them. But as Elynn said, "then where is the point in that?". True, but I always have the urge to do so. =.=

Things are going great lately. In fact, I can make my life more simple than it looks, but people chose not to. That is the typical mind of a human. Agree?

Mom said, "Life is not complicated, its the people who are complicated."

Trials are coming in 2 more weeks. Good luck to all SPM-ers. Don't worry if u can't achieve this trial. Just do well in SPM!

But I didn't say you must not give up till SPM! :D

Good luck again...

Current Song: Wanted--Jessie James
Current Mood: Confused.

Baby, I only wanted to be wanted by you.

Don't want to be pissed.

2009-08-14T03:22:00.000-07:00

If you make me comment about today. I would say that today was one of the days that I get pissed after a long long time...

Seriously, I never got angry for quite some time now. So don't pissed me off. I just might blow. I nearly lost my patience today.

Ok, I know that someone's relationship is the last thing I want to meddle into. But if it affects me, then your done. LOL. But seriously la weyh, can't people understand the word NO? Can't they understand the word "Move on"? Or do they need a succint explanation?

I don't want to say anything la. But I really can't help it but to hate what you are doing la~~~ I hate meddling into someone's business but you made me to...

Can't I just have a decent time where I can play vball with my friends?! And I mean, really seriously PLAY BALL. Sure you can have your fun, but don't mes with me... I hate being angry.

Shit... I'm talking like Mr. Hulk now. You know, the green green monster who gets angry and starts destroying everything? LOL!!!

Don't make me angry.

I really hope I can get a decent game tomorrow or the following week. For the LOVE OF GOD! I'm having SPM Trials in a matter of weeks. So please!!!! =.=

I wonder why the weather is soooo hot these days? Or its just me...

LOL!

Videos, videos, videos.

2009-08-12T05:10:00.000-07:00

Okayyy!!! Okaaayyy!! You want update, I'll give it to you.

Mostly, the stuff I wanted to update about or should I say stuff that I want to blog, mostly forgotten 7788 now. So, erm forgive me. My blog is gonna become a museum already. So here's your update.

If you don't know me well, I love going to YouTube. In fact, I love YouTube so much that once I open my computer the second site I go to is YouTube. First is Facebook!

Okay okay, have a few videos here for you!

This is the original version of Insomnia SUNG BY Craig David. I love this song cause of its catchy tempo and techno feeling...

Here's the original video.

And this stupid fellow here, some lame korean guy sang a cover of his version of Insomnia. Which SUCKS. Sorry to all KOREAN music fans out there, especially fans of this guy, WheeSung, how can he choose Insomnia?! He totally destroy the song! Here's his video.

Copycat, loser, and NO ORIGINALITY. I gotta admit.

But though I hate him, doesn't mean I hate Korean Music. In fact, I'm a fan of DBSK. Well before I wasn't but now, listening to their songs, not bad...

The guy who destroyed Craig David's Insomnia. Idiot indeed.

Moving on, next video...

I have creeps for this video, seriously the first time I watch this. Gave me a whole new vision for Gaga. Yes, I'm talking about Lady Gaga. Her video of "Paparazzi" gaves me chills at the back of my neck when I first saw it.

Sorry for its blurness. I can't seem to find a clear video. I don't know about you, this video give me the creeps especially when she is in the Yellow Minnie Mouse suit.

Next video?

One of the best acapella group I come through. The 3nity brothers.

Okay, last video. This is the funniest parody I have ever seen. Credits to Junee for introducing. Mr.Brown show parady--Nobody(Wash your hands too) HAVE TO WATCH!!!

That should be enough for an update, right???

ANYWAY, I gotta run. School reopen tomorrow! Yay! I miss volleyball with Bombasticans.

FACEBOOK!

2009-08-03T05:45:00.000-07:00

SO SORRY GUYS!!!

I'm so busy...

Busy doing what?

Facebook-ing!!!!

We all are actually, you name it. Choc, me, Evelyn, SzuYan, Cheryl, all of us la! We are all into Facebook now.

Taking lame quizes, games(which I dont play), applications, and meeting more people. So I dont mind if you add me... =] With this email: philcoolgurl@hotmail.com... Add ah, add ah, add ah, will be waiting for your friend request!!!

You may never know whom you might meet there too! Trust me, I met too much on the people that I LEAST wanna meet.

I'm too busy to update on what's happening to me lately, so again. Sorry!

Anyway, will tell ya what happen today. Today, I was making fun of someone, I said it out loud, so I guess I have my wrongs too. But hello? I didn't mean it in a serious way ok? By the way, the way you looked at me was totally... WHOA. Who the hell do you think you are. My comments are to myself and my friends.

Maybe you don't know me, but I know myself way better. If you cross that line, you and I are finished. This is what I think or what I have in mind when it comes to friendship.

Anyway, assembly was boring. Nothing surprising there. Except for having a "nice" view, I couldn't complain more. But I was too greedy that I wanted to switch place with Cheryl. But she tak bagi!!! >< href="http://photobucket.com/images/psychotic" target="_blank">

SueChin skipped her class today. Cool! I had a feeling that agama would be canceled today. The teacher doesn't even know HOW TO TEACH! She is bloody reading from a book, oh great, now everyone can be a teacher who reads from a book kind. =.=

Stupid, my SPM will pass bcuz of my effort and no way its any of hers!!! Anyway, I finally got a chance to be in one of the upcoming 100 years year book in our school. Yeaphe, I'm talking about the year book that has a few buyers buying it. Check out the fugly picture!!!

Life should be crazy as the people in the photo!

I love this picture!!! :)))

I'm checking out now! REMEMBER! FACEBOOK!!! =]

Till next time, bye!

Talent time performance.

2009-07-27T03:45:00.000-07:00

THE SHOW WAS A SUCCESS! DON'T U AGREE SO?!

MNM did great. We had lots of great comments, thanks u guys! We love you all! I'm starting to feel like a star already... Buahaha! Joke!

Credits to SueChin for the photos, to unknown for the black guitar, to many more other people!

Somebody even suggest us to go and make a record? Wow. thanks much!

I was pretty shocked with Melissa. She was HONESTLY, better than the original. So that's what really makes this group, her voice is really precious! Haha! (my precioussss, *grinning*)

I'm addicted on going up to the stage already?! How how how?! Shiat! Lol. Thanks again for all the comments!

These are the pictures during the practice and rehearsal.

Melissa.

Nicole...

Mariam!!! =]

Together we are, this...

Yup, a packet of chocolate! Haha~~

During Monday morning, wow, I was seriously nervous. Nervous dao I need to go to toilet countless amount of times. We didn't really concentrated on the previous contestants who went up there, cuz me and Melissa was outside practicing vocals. :D

Then, when it was our turn. Hoho, I didn't know why I wasn't that nervous anymore. Just quickly prepare all the instruments, equipments and bla! Oh, the broadcasting group seriously need to IMPROVE on their equipments and brains!

My mic was all the broadcasting group's fault! Melissa's guitar which is connected to the school's speaker has no sound coming out! If we get this 2 things fix, we would do a lot more better! Screw them! They screwed up electrogravity's dancing performance too! But what to do. What's done is done.

I found out something, MNM get people crazy about the song "Your Call" and "Run", especially the ones who told us that our performance went great! Well, I'm really glad. That means our group is introducing Secondhand Serenade and Leona Lewis. Which is two of the artist we respect much! Well, for me at least!

Anyway, that's all I can say. It was a performance to be remembered. We all had fun, I'm so loving high school!

Current Music: Te amo--Rihanna
Current Mood: Highhh~